At the core of my innermost being I now know that LIFE is a gift, yet it is so fickle. Each one of us has a purpose to fulfill during our lifetime; therefore, to live fully and authentically, we must be intentional on how we do it.
Like many of you, I was never prepared for the real LIFE of an Adult after getting out of the direct care of parents or guardians. More so, the reality of death and loss while familiar did not appear too obvious especially when it came to my close relations.
I always believed that the ideal family is a happy nuclear family that lives forever and when I got the opportunity of starting one, I strived to have exactly that until my reality was brought to test. I lost my grandfather who I grew up calling my father shortly after my graduation from Law School at the University.
Following his demise, I experienced, depression, PTSD, anxiety, lack, rejection, failure, and suddenly I felt like I did not belong.
On the same day he was laid to rest 6th April, 2013, four years later on 6th April, 2017 I had a beautiful daughter we named ILIA. A Hebrew name that means God is Lord. This girl was not only a ray of sunshine, but she brought forth a rebirth of my former self. She was a ball of love. Surrounded and showered by love. I had over four (4) baby showers for her.
Unfortunately, on 25th March, 2020 in the middle of a pandemic a few days before her third birthday we lost her under unclear circumstances.
This loss created a vacuum that I had no idea who or what would ever fill it and I chose to lean onto HOPE and FAITH in the promises of restoration. The promise that JOY comes in the morning and God is close to the brokenhearted.
I refused to go back to the place I was at in 2013 and focus on the miracles that I was believing God for. God activated the gift to ENCOURAGE amidst my pain as a pathway for my HEALING.
Right in that moment, I knew that part of the healing journey would be to REDEFINE MY PAST for a more FULFILLING PRESENT.
This gift of love emanating from the pain of losing my first born daughter ILIA has birthed the ministry of love and empathy towards others. Incidentally my Partner has the same gift, so I am convinced that this is part of why we were connected in marriage.
My purpose, therefore, is to walk with you, to guide you through the journey of clinging onto HOPE with FAITH as you redefine your past for a more fulfilling present while you let God do his restoration and redemption work.
It is not an easy journey but knowing our true identity enables us to be the salt and the light of the world which is our true calling on this earth.
If like me, you have been through loss, pain, rejection, failure or even questioned your identity; will you make the choice to allow me to be a little part of your healing & re-definition journey?